This past week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. For the most part, everything went well in my life. I am getting ready to leave to go to Czech Republic next week and see my family. I am on top of all of my YouTube goals, and I have so many things to look forward to in the future. Unfortunately, I got caught up in some drama, and to be honest, I didn’t handle it the way I should have. I tweeted some things about how I was feeling, and while I never mentioned the name of the person or insinuated who they were, I still said some hasty remarks. I was angry, upset, and above all else, confused.
Unfortunately, this is NOT the first time something like that has happened. In the past, whenever someone who I held dear to my heart stabbed me in the back, I always became a bitter person afterwards. I’d swear off any new friendships, and I’d tell myself, “NEVER AGAIN!” But this time, I’m going to do things differently. This time I’m going to take this experience, I’m going to learn from it, and I’m going to move on with my life in the most positive way that I can. I am going to recognize that not everything that looks like a rose is a rose. Sometimes people will shower us with compliments, love, and praise, only to turn the other cheek and speak badly of us to others. This is just a fact of life, and it is something that I will have to get used to as a person that lives my life through social media. My channel exposes me to a whirlwind of crazy, negative, and spiteful people. But with that negativity, comes a ton of positivity. And for every bad person I have encountered, I have also encountered 10 other amazing people. You have to filter the bad out, and the good in. That is all you CAN do.
Every day I get mean messages from absolute strangers. People calling me a slut, a whore, and twisting words I said. I’ve gotten to that point where those strangers don’t hurt me anymore, but when it comes from a person you thought you could trust, the cut stings a little bit deeper. The one thing I will say though, if someone uses an opportunity to speak badly of you and make up lies, odds are, they never truly liked you in the first place. That hate was brewing up inside them the whole time, and the reason that person probably befriended you was to advance themselves in some way. As soon as it becomes convenient to turn you into a pawn or turn against you, they will. You encounter a LOT of these types through Youtube, and this is just something I’ve grown accustomed to.
So what do I do now? I guess as the title states, I will move on. I will not trust as easily as I once had, but I will remain friendly, kind, and gracious to people. As I get older, I slowly but surely get better at handling things maturely. Sure, sometimes I just want to SCREAM, and post passive aggressive statuses, but at the end of the day, it’s only making ME look bad. From now on, if anything like this happens I will channel it in a positive way. I will write, I will go to the gym, I will listen to music, I will confide in those I trust. Life is too short to sweat the small stuff. In the end, appreciate the bad people, because they are your teachers through life.